Dear Blog,

I haven’t been posting or sending out newsletters in a while and it feels bad. Because when I do WANT to post or send something out, I feel ashamed and then I give up.

It’s like that time I went to an all-females gym before I was married. I went almost every day, then I started not going. Because of some reason or another (I can’t remember).

The gym owner even started messaging me on Facebook asking, “Aina bila nak datang gym lagi? 😊” That coming from her, a warm and friendly lady, wasn’t offensive at all.

But still, it felt impossible for me to SHOW UP and start going to the gym again.

Maybe I’m not confident anymore. Maybe I feel like all my progress is lost. Maybe I’m aiming too high with my starting-again plan. Maybe I don’t need to go to the gym yet for things to start moving?

Well, back to writing. It’s not like I haven’t been writing at all. But I know I need to publish these writings for people to read. (That’s the part I’m struggling with) I guess this Dear Blog post is my way of slowly gaining the momentum back again.

What I have been doing instead:

  • Playing around with Excel and organizing data for my dayjob. Very surprisingly, I find myself getting obsessed with Excel and organizing data feels almost like a guilty pleasure. I’m even reading up on Excel tips on a daily basis. (For me, that’s weird)

  • Eating meat with my husband. My husband (let’s call him ‘S’) is a meat-enthusiast. We’ve been partying it up at Beard Brothers’ BBQ and Wagyu Kokoro recently.

  • NOT being on social media for almost 3 weeks. It first started off as a temporary thing. Delete the apps during the weekdays and reinstall them Friday night. But after a few tries, it felt more natural to just NOT install them back again. It’s been a nice break!

Well, till the next time then, dear blog. I’ll be back.